Personal Reflection and Journaling about the first six months of 2026
I am reflecting on these four questions, to move consciously into the second half of 2026.
What circumstances simply happened?
Where did you do things differently than before?
What are you celebrating about your process?
Who are you becoming in all of this?
Feel free to stop here and reflect these questions for yourself.
This part is about my very personal reflection, I am sharing in my attempt to show of with all parts, in full honesty on where I am right now and see where this leads me:
What circumstances simply happened? Where did you do things differently than before?
I started the year in the alps, spending time with our beautiful friends and my family in Saas-Fee, at minus 15 degrees, in our bus. It was an experience and an experiment, exactly as we had set it up. And I was so ready for more comfort, so we drove home, and it felt like, hell yes, that is what I want. I had set the intention of «Ruhe und Rhythmus» for 2026, calmness and rhythm, and I was ready to step into it.
At the end of January I finished the year long leadership retreat, went for another week to Sitges in Spain with my beautiful peer group of leaders, and had the most amazing experience. First, that I did not want to leave home and my family. That was so unusual for me. I savoured the moment and stayed with this feeling I have heard about so often from others, when they have set something up and then find themselves not wanting to step into it. I used to be the one to always smile, jump and run right in.
In the retreat I got to explore a level of wholeness in me that felt authentic, true and full of ease all at once. I was moving beyond simply accepting myself and trying to be seen, into a place that felt loving. A place of loving myself. I got to have intellectually fascinating conversations, to be the crazy dancer all over the dancefloor, the person with a lot of emotions (aka information ;), and also the one who just is and listens, and so much more. It was a place of not needing to prove or perform, but rather just being, with all of my parts. A beautiful taster. Never in my whole life have I been so at ease in a big group, and across so many layers of relationship at the same time. I left with gratitude towards myself and towards all the leaders and peers who were part of this experience, and our shared love for growing each other and ourselves.
Oh, and then arriving back home and settling in was harder than expected.
Jumping straight into a longer birthday celebration for my husband went against my deep insight to really honour transitions. And the transition from this deep retreat back into family life is a big one for me, I know that now. I did not honour it, and I paid the price. I was tense, and I was not fully enjoying or engaging in the way I wished, which only confirmed how important transitions are to me, and how much I want to care for making space for them. A great reminder.
We still had fun, sledding and celebrating his 45th birthday.
He had been made redundant at the start-up where he worked in product management, and despite his great achievements there, he was let go. He had also just been to his first men’s retreat, at the wonderful Mandali in Italy, and came back with many insights and a sense of the deeper consciousness that opened through it.
So much was opening in both of us. We tried to make space for it, and struggled beautifully to do so.
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I got to experience a full Ayurveda Panchakarma Kur, and a whole new spaciousness within my body and my being, such a sense of extension. I said it felt like going from a violin to a double bass, in terms of the room I could sense within my chest. I made so much space to experience all of it, letting go of my need to be productive and of value at all times to something outside myself. What amazing spaciousness came through. An incredible reference point and taster. I have never felt so wide.
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I was also working a lot on my positioning, trying to understand how I can best serve, moving forward. I felt so much new capacity, but was not yet sure where and how to bring it, and to whom. I had changed so much again. Where to go with this? I was spiralling, I was trying, I was hopeless, and so much more. What was different from previous, similar, bigger transitions was this: I could see that it mattered to stay in it, not to try to escape, to surrender to the unknown. And I did, more than before. Not fully though 😉
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This also happened: every one of my loved ones stayed mostly healthy, new lives are beginning in the bodies of some of my closest friends, and my mother had some smaller health issues, but is mostly healthy and thriving. Our son kept growing, challenging us by mirroring our patterns, and we did some smaller trips.
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My partner in crime and I started couple coaching, following a need to go deeper and to grow more together. What a gift, to have this space for us, held by such a wonderful human.
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And then our spring holidays in our house in southern Switzerland, in Locarno, a place I have been coming to for the last 25 years. I had the «best holidays» of my life, unexpectedly, and it all came through because I so beautifully insisted on bringing my needs into our family system, with strength and softness at the same time. We had 8 days together, the three of us, with joy, calmness and so much just being. I was so, so happy.
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I made space for my friendships, drove to the alps with my friend Andrea and we spent two days in the camper van and enjoyed the nature… Went to a yoga festival with my wonderful friend Mara… Enjoyed a weekend in Ticino with Jasmin and our sons explored beautiful nature… and hosted my wonderful sister in our home… had great deep conversations and more explorations with our friends in the beautiful Graubünden.. I become more present with them… and sometimes I was also so tired and just wished to be alone, and stayed anyway, allowing myself to be less than 100% here.
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I hired a beautiful supervisor, Wiebke and starting to reflect the coachings with my clients outside of a training container, I felt so good about this professional decision and I felt Wiebke and I very so meant to meet. Super grateful for this collaboration..
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I started to work more consciously on my marketing and sales strategy for Positive Coaching, and interviewed 13 wonderful humans. It was such a beautiful and insightful journey. From it, I created a new offering, and a clearer persona, based more on their process than on their roles. I also got to do the most wonderful brand shooting with the one and only Erna Drion and it felt literally like a wedding with myself, celebrating all parts of me and believing this might have ripple effects on my future clients, to feel they can do the same for themselves… Being with all of them. Hell we had quite some fun, and it was intense too. I also relaunched a completly new website with Noah.. it was supposed to be a light touch redesign, it became a whole new page… I recorded testimonials with my clients on video and was grateful that they took the invitation…. I experiemented with a podcast «author of your life». I wrote 18 newsletters and enjoyed (almost) each process of writing. «Guested» in two podcasts, both recorded in nature…
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Served my clients at Positive Coaching with coaching outdoors on the phone and in person, walking in the forest, at the Limmat and all over Switzerland and sometimes beyond… I am grateful for the wonderful humans I get to work with, I love each one of them.
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Officially started a collaboration with ILD Integral Leadership Dynamics, signed the Associate contract to start supporting big corporations in Switzerland and beyond with leadership trainings and beyond.. I was so pleased to experience and read their philosophy in the last 3 years of building up this relationship…
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My wonderful friend and branding specialist Ritu Riedweg approached me and asked whether I would like to take over the lead of the female network for female entrepreneurs at the Gold Coast, from summer 2026. I felt an immediate YES, and even after a few weeks I stayed in the YES and made the jump. I also knew right away that I had to make this «mine», so I adjusted some parts and rebranded it to WomenDorf.
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Lately I have received many invitations towards more sensuality and deeper self love, after exploring inner parts like my inner destroyer and my inner sad child on a whole new and deeper level.
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and so much more… what a richness of circumnstances in the first part of 2026…
I am grateful and curious to go a level deeper with the next two questions:
What are you celebrating about your process?
For me this one is mostly about celebrating my intention of calmness and rhythm, and really living up to it. One of the reflections that spoke loudest to me came from one of my closest people. She said, «You are so much more calm.» Yes, I am. So much tension has released.
I am also so grateful, and celebrating the capacity I have built up over the last years, and more and more in the last months, to be with all parts of me and to give them a whole new level of appreciation. It is already starting to ripple outwards, and it is a continued process inwards, to give those parts love. Love as unconditional interest in their development, so that all parts may flourish and thrive.
I am celebrating accepting myself, also when not at 100%, not super present, tired. That’s okay, I am human, not an optimised machine, I am imperfect just as every other human. There is so much more acceptance I feel for my own humanness, stopping to treat my like an object. I also made room to experiment to be with less perfection in terms of doings sports, my processes and rituals. What came out: Was much more flow, more following my intuition, more joy in just singing without trying to get it right and feeling more what’s present, what’s mine, what’s not, letting go and let «emotions» and things pass through me… Playing with emotional and somatic release with a very intuitive approach.
I have clear commitments to my loved ones, my clients, my company and the places I continue to make more beautiful. That feels so great.
It’s beautiful and celebrating not having so many rules to follow any more, all of which have been imposed on me previously by myself ;).
I am also celebrating taking my needs more seriously, without being serious about them.
I am celebrating taking more responsibility for my reality, letting to some of my perfectionism as a protection mechanism, that was so ingrained in me. I am celebrating myself to have more and more choice in my behaviours and thoughts and how I relate to others, circumstances and myself.
Who are you becoming in all of this?
Oh, how I love this question. It is still hard to answer. I think I am becoming more whole. I am becoming more loving, from a place of self love. I am also becoming more humble and more honest, honest on a whole new level. I can bear it all. Almost all. There are a few topics I still want to bring more light to, like money or sensuality. But overall I am becoming a calmer and more accepting person. I am sure I have let go of quite some pressure and tension, which leaves me lighter.
I am becoming more of ME, more of my essence.
I am becoming more love.
I am also becoming more and more a VOID room, with so many options and so much choice in how I use this space, and myself.
I am becoming. A void room full of choice. That is my being an author with a blank page I am no longer afraid of….
Back to you my dear.
Take a breathe and:
Go and enjoy your beautiful life, author of your life!
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